Today is Today!

Yes, I live......Yes, I breathe.....and Yes, I am working my rear off, but have no way to prove it!!! Don't you hate it when you are working hard, but your rear gets larger?

So, I have my reasons for not writing in awhile. Besides, working, working and working, I have been kept busy by God. I love it when God knows you need to be busy....busy with His work, and busy about work.

I hate the first half of October and today is the mid-way point so tomorrow should be different(more about that............. tomorrow). Let's see.........why do I hate the first of October. It is still warm, and fall should have already blessed us with cool (I mean cool not lukewarm) weather. I also hate the beginning of October because the grass begins to die, acorns begin to fall (lots of acorns in my yard), and in previous years I have lost those that I love during the first weeks of this month.

Seven years ago today, the morning was like this one. Overcast, but not real cool. Seven years ago today our drought broke with a record 2 inches in just a couple of hours. Funny that those 2 inches started just about the time I was loading my pregnant body into a Limo to head to the church for a funeral. As a Language Arts teacher, I now find some real symbolism in that day. As Lois Lowry says in her book Number the Stars, "The rain made it seem as if the whole world was crying." And at the same time, I couldn't help but smile because I could see and hear "Cowboy Kelly" up there telling the Lord that it was "plumb dry" down there in Abilene, and he would like to take over the watering for awhile. You know, seven years have gone by. I have two precious children, a great support group at church, a family that God has kept together and kept us close, in-laws that love, help and support, and a wonderful man in my life, BUT.....today I miss Kelly. He was my FIRST real love. The one I first loved with my whole being...body, soul and heart. He was my "cowboy" who rescued me. He made me his queen. He is the father of my children, and the one who taught me to ride a horse, drive a huge truck, shoot a gun (told me to aim to the left and I would hit the target over on the right), and how to stop my fear of tornadoes (shoot them with a gun or just chase them!) He watched "Days of Our Lives", "Teletubbies", "Lonesome Dove" and attended "low-fat menu", teacher filled gatherings with me. If he said it, he meant it, and if he shook your hand, it was a honest and done deal. All 6ft 3in. of him would do potty patrol for 2 year olds at church, and he loved to take my grandmother for a spin in the John Deere Gator. Just so you know.................I still have those days; I still have those reminders (cowboy hats, mustaches and spurs); and in the middle of a blessed life, I still miss him. Miss him enough to share him with you today. Tomorrow will be different............Just wait and see. But today...........well, it is today.
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